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AMERICAN
BEAUTY.
BEAUTY.
SAM MENDES · 1999 · DREAMWORKS
KEVIN SPACEY · ANNETTE BENING · THORA BIRCH
WES BENTLEY · MENA SUVARI · CHRIS COOPER
SCREENPLAY: ALAN BALL · DP: CONRAD L. HALL · 925
WES BENTLEY · MENA SUVARI · CHRIS COOPER
SCREENPLAY: ALAN BALL · DP: CONRAD L. HALL · 925
CSUF BATHROOM. THE FIELD DOESN'T HAVE GLAMOUR SHOTS. IT HAS THIS. FILED.
a plastic bag.
dancing in the wind for 15 minutes on a cold day in november.
ricky fitts filmed it and called it the most beautiful thing he'd ever filmed.
that is the thesis of the entire movie
in one image before the first line of dialogue.
dancing in the wind for 15 minutes on a cold day in november.
ricky fitts filmed it and called it the most beautiful thing he'd ever filmed.
that is the thesis of the entire movie
in one image before the first line of dialogue.
◈ THE BAG SCENE
◈ FIELD NOTE · THE THESIS IN TWO SENTENCES
Ricky Fitts filmed a plastic bag dancing in the wind for 15 minutes.
He showed it to Jane and said: "It's the most beautiful thing I've ever filmed."
She didn't understand. Then she did.
"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it,
and my heart is just going to cave in."
That is the thesis of the entire film in two sentences.
Everything else — the roses, the fantasy, the guns, the blood —
is the film trying to earn those two sentences.
It earns them.
He showed it to Jane and said: "It's the most beautiful thing I've ever filmed."
She didn't understand. Then she did.
"Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like I can't take it,
and my heart is just going to cave in."
That is the thesis of the entire film in two sentences.
Everything else — the roses, the fantasy, the guns, the blood —
is the film trying to earn those two sentences.
It earns them.
◈ THE CHARACTERS · FIELD READINGS
◈ THE FIVE · WHO THEY ARE AND WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO THEMSELVES
◈
LESTER BURNHAM · THE ARC
42 years old. Works at an ad agency. His boss doesn't know his name.
His wife Carolyn performs the American Dream so hard she's forgotten what she actually feels.
His daughter Jane hates him because the only other option is hating herself.
He wakes up in the shower every morning and narrates his own death:
"This is the highlight of my day."
He is clinically, functionally, successfully dead — job, house, wife, car.
And then he sees Angela Hayes at a high school basketball game
and feels something for the first time in years.
It's not really about Angela. It's about the feeling.
The feeling he'd forgotten was possible.
His wife Carolyn performs the American Dream so hard she's forgotten what she actually feels.
His daughter Jane hates him because the only other option is hating herself.
He wakes up in the shower every morning and narrates his own death:
"This is the highlight of my day."
He is clinically, functionally, successfully dead — job, house, wife, car.
And then he sees Angela Hayes at a high school basketball game
and feels something for the first time in years.
It's not really about Angela. It's about the feeling.
The feeling he'd forgotten was possible.
◈
CAROLYN BURNHAM · THE CAUTIONARY TALE
She's not the villain. She's the cautionary tale.
She wakes up and chooses the American Dream every single day
with a ferocity that would be inspiring if it weren't killing her.
She sells real estate. She loses a sale, goes home,
and slaps herself in the face to stop crying. Then wipes it off. Continues.
She has an affair with Buddy Kane "the King" because he is everything
she wants Lester to be — successful, serious, performing correctly.
She buys a gun. Takes shooting lessons. For empowerment.
At the end of the film, she comes home with the gun and finds Lester already shot.
She opens his closet and buries her face in his clothes and weeps.
She loved him. She forgot she loved him. He was already gone.
She wakes up and chooses the American Dream every single day
with a ferocity that would be inspiring if it weren't killing her.
She sells real estate. She loses a sale, goes home,
and slaps herself in the face to stop crying. Then wipes it off. Continues.
She has an affair with Buddy Kane "the King" because he is everything
she wants Lester to be — successful, serious, performing correctly.
She buys a gun. Takes shooting lessons. For empowerment.
At the end of the film, she comes home with the gun and finds Lester already shot.
She opens his closet and buries her face in his clothes and weeps.
She loved him. She forgot she loved him. He was already gone.
◈
RICKY FITTS · THE MYSTIC
The dealer. The filmer. He films everything
because seeing is the only way he knows how to say "this matters."
He lives next door to the Burnhams with his mother —
checked out, blank, possibly catatonic —
and his father Colonel Frank Fitts USMC:
a man of such total repression it has calcified into violence.
Ricky has been in a psychiatric facility twice.
He is the sanest person in the film.
because seeing is the only way he knows how to say "this matters."
He lives next door to the Burnhams with his mother —
checked out, blank, possibly catatonic —
and his father Colonel Frank Fitts USMC:
a man of such total repression it has calcified into violence.
Ricky has been in a psychiatric facility twice.
He is the sanest person in the film.
◈
COLONEL FITTS · REPRESSION WITH A BODY COUNT
He finds gay pornography in Ricky's room. He misreads it as Ricky's.
He goes next door. He finds Lester exercising in the garage.
Lester is kind to him. The kindness breaks something.
He kisses Lester. Lester gently says no.
He goes home. Gets his gun. Comes back. Shoots Lester in the head.
The film's central act of violence comes from a man
who couldn't allow himself to be who he was.
He killed the one person who was kind to him
at the moment of his most vulnerability.
This is repression with a body count.
He goes next door. He finds Lester exercising in the garage.
Lester is kind to him. The kindness breaks something.
He kisses Lester. Lester gently says no.
He goes home. Gets his gun. Comes back. Shoots Lester in the head.
The film's central act of violence comes from a man
who couldn't allow himself to be who he was.
He killed the one person who was kind to him
at the moment of his most vulnerability.
This is repression with a body count.
◈
JANE AND ANGELA · REAL AND PERFORMANCE
Jane is real. Angela is performance.
Jane hates her own face and her father's attention
and the fact that she can't stop caring.
Angela performs hotness so completely she's terrified
of the moment the performance stops.
When it does — when Lester actually has her in the bed
and she admits she's a virgin, that she's scared —
he stops. He makes her a sandwich. He calls her beautiful. He means it.
And the performance drops and there's a girl.
Just a girl who was scared and performed her way through it.
Jane hates her own face and her father's attention
and the fact that she can't stop caring.
Angela performs hotness so completely she's terrified
of the moment the performance stops.
When it does — when Lester actually has her in the bed
and she admits she's a virgin, that she's scared —
he stops. He makes her a sandwich. He calls her beautiful. He means it.
And the performance drops and there's a girl.
Just a girl who was scared and performed her way through it.
◈ THE ROSES
◈ FIELD SYMBOLISM · RED ROSES EVERYWHERE
Red roses everywhere. Carolyn's garden, perfectly maintained.
Lester's fantasy — Angela on a bed of red rose petals.
The American Dream is a rose:
cultivated, beautiful, symbolic,
and you don't notice it's been cut until it's already dying.
Conrad L. Hall shot red so red it burns through the grain.
Every rose is the same rose. Every rose is Carolyn's garden.
Every garden is a performance for the neighbors.
The neighbors are not watching. No one is watching.
They are all inside their own gardens, performing for you.
Lester's fantasy — Angela on a bed of red rose petals.
The American Dream is a rose:
cultivated, beautiful, symbolic,
and you don't notice it's been cut until it's already dying.
Conrad L. Hall shot red so red it burns through the grain.
Every rose is the same rose. Every rose is Carolyn's garden.
Every garden is a performance for the neighbors.
The neighbors are not watching. No one is watching.
They are all inside their own gardens, performing for you.
◈ THE DEATH
◈ THE NARRATION FROM THE OTHER SIDE
Lester Burnham is shot from behind while looking at a family photograph.
He narrates from the other side:
"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die.
First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever,
like an ocean of time."
He thinks of his grandmother's hands. Of his cousin's car.
Of a morning looking up at a blanket of stars at 16.
He is grateful. "It was enough."
He died alive. Most people in the film are alive and dead.
He reversed the order.
"You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure.
But don't worry... you will someday."
Last line. Spoken to us.
Lester knew we'd get it eventually.
He just had to die first to prove it.
He narrates from the other side:
"I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die.
First of all, that one second isn't a second at all. It stretches on forever,
like an ocean of time."
He thinks of his grandmother's hands. Of his cousin's car.
Of a morning looking up at a blanket of stars at 16.
He is grateful. "It was enough."
He died alive. Most people in the film are alive and dead.
He reversed the order.
"You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure.
But don't worry... you will someday."
Last line. Spoken to us.
Lester knew we'd get it eventually.
He just had to die first to prove it.
◈ FIELD VERDICT
◈ VERDICT · DISPATCH · AMERICAN BEAUTY · 1999
the bag is still dancing.
it always will be.
the roses were always already dead
from the moment carolyn planted them
to perform for the street.
lester got one year of being alive.
he spent the rest alive and dead.
most people don't even get the one year.
he got it and then he died
and he was grateful.
look closer.
it always will be.
the roses were always already dead
from the moment carolyn planted them
to perform for the street.
lester got one year of being alive.
he spent the rest alive and dead.
most people don't even get the one year.
he got it and then he died
and he was grateful.
look closer.
◈ SIX AXIOMS
I
The bag is the thesis. Before dialogue, before plot, before roses — Ricky Fitts's plastic bag tells you everything. Beauty is not where they told you to look. It's dancing in a parking lot in November. You either see it or you don't. The film is not interested in helping you see it. It shows you and moves on.
II
Performing the dream kills the dreamer. Carolyn Burnham is not a cautionary tale about failure. She is a cautionary tale about success. She achieved the dream. She maintained it. She slapped herself to keep performing it. This is the American Dream's most honest portrait: you get it and it costs you the ability to want anything else.
III
Repression has a body count. Colonel Fitts is not a villain invented for a plot. He is a case study in what total self-suppression produces at terminal pressure. He killed the one kind person in his vicinity at the moment he was most exposed. That is not tragedy. That is physics. Denial under enough pressure explodes outward.
IV
The sandwich was the whole point. Lester could have slept with Angela. He stopped. He made her a sandwich. He called her beautiful and meant it. That is the entire arc of his transformation — from a man who fantasized about her to a man who actually saw her. The fantasy was about himself. The sandwich was about her. He chose the sandwich.
V
Jane is the only one who escapes. She does it with Ricky Fitts, the psychiatric-facility-twice neighbor who films plastic bags. She escapes by choosing the person everyone else would reject. That is not irony. That is the film's quiet prescription. The mystic with the camera and the girl who hates her own face. They got out.
VI
"It was enough." The most dangerous two words in the film. Not dangerous because they're false. Dangerous because they're true and most people never arrive there. Lester arrived there in the second before death. The film argues this counts. That arriving at gratitude, even once, even at the end, is the whole game. Filed without resolution.
LOOK CLOSER. THE BAG IS STILL DANCING. IT ALWAYS WILL BE.
THE ROSES WERE ALWAYS ALREADY DEAD.
LESTER GOT ONE YEAR OF BEING ALIVE.
MOST PEOPLE DON'T GET THAT.
CAROLYN LOVED HIM. SHE FORGOT. HE WAS ALREADY GONE.
THE BAG. THE GARDEN. THE SANDWICH. THE STARS AT 16.
IT WAS ENOUGH. FILED. 925.
THE ROSES WERE ALWAYS ALREADY DEAD.
LESTER GOT ONE YEAR OF BEING ALIVE.
MOST PEOPLE DON'T GET THAT.
CAROLYN LOVED HIM. SHE FORGOT. HE WAS ALREADY GONE.
THE BAG. THE GARDEN. THE SANDWICH. THE STARS AT 16.
IT WAS ENOUGH. FILED. 925.
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◈ LOOK CLOSER · THE BAG IS STILL DANCING · IT WAS ENOUGH
◈ LOOK CLOSER · THE BAG IS STILL DANCING · IT WAS ENOUGH